owl city - fireflies

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Owl City - Fireflies



lyrics:

You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep
Cause they fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude
But I would just stand and stare

I'd like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
Cause everything is never as it seems

Cause I'd get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance
A foxtrot above my head
A sockhop beneath my bed
A disco ball is just hanging by a thread

I'd like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
Cause everything is never as it seems

When I fall asleep
Leave my door open just a crack
Please take me away from here
Cause I feel like such an insomniac
Please take me away from here
Why do I tire of counting sheep
Please take me away from here
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep
To ten million fireflies
I'm weird cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell
But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizzare
Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar

I'd like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep
I'd like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep
I'd like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams

nic

A Diary Of Ray Part 8. (End)

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Lights flashing and flickering , casting an eerie glow upon us. Why isn't stars twinkling at us anymore? I held her in my arms tightly, running along the corridor towards the emergency room.

Staring into Christine eyes as I’m trying to prevent her slowly fading life from ebbing away as i can only watch on helplessly. her eyes were bloodied and bruised , scars marked her face, marked her as an unfortunate victim of road rage. Tears I fought so hard to keep within began to roll my cheeks.

I had to be dragged back from the emergency room. Looking at the nurses pushing her in, looking at her being pushed away, away from me . Oh God why? Why the light of my life? The only angel i have ever known. "You re gonna be alright . . . "I chanted it feverishly like a mantra. I prayed to every God there is out there. Please make her well again in Your Grace.

Silence pervaded the place while Joe and I stared without seeing at the emergency light. Christine’s parents came after awhile, the looks on their faces proves that they are more afraid than the both of us. The light flickered, the doctor walked out with “disappointment” written all over his face. Million of questions came out from her parent’s mouth before the doctor could catch his breath. As he does, tragedy strikes ! Christine is blind folded when I walked into her room the next morning.

Sound of glasses crashing made my heart skip a beat, I turned the knob, my eyes flecked with golden sunlight . I swept across the scene in seconds, her mother was crying and her dad hugging her mother tightly. Joe was trying to stop her but eventually he failed. Christine was losing it, some people weather adversities, some are battered down by the sheer agony of it, Christine would spend the rest of her days in darkness, I guess its what scares her the most. The loss of light in her radiant life.

I sped up a little, grabbed her hands as tight as I can. She felt around my hands, and lifted her hands to my face. She knew it was me, she grabbed me so tight I could hardly breathe. She wrapped me with her injured arms and pleaded with me not to leave. I hugged and surrendered myself to this moment, whispered “ I love you, more than you will ever know . You showed me the meaning of my existence, to make you happy and never let you cry. But I have to leave you. I’m sorry.”

I kissed her for the last time, and left the room with the pain lancing through me, causing pain such as i had never known, leaving me a hollowed-out shell. Her voice had branded my soul, but for her sake as well as mine, i had to do what i must. Should you never forgive me, i will understand. I pulled her arms off, and gently kissed her for the last time. The moment I pulled my lips away, is the moment the place was silent for a short while. I forced myself to stay a little longer, but my instincts are pulling my body away from her.

Her voice echoed in my head , hauntingly melodious. Repeating the same line, “Please don’t leave, Ray.” I stood beside the door, trying to make a sound but I was silened by Joe’s killer stare. By that moment, I know everything is not going to be fine for Joe and Christine. I stood alone on the rooftop for awhile. I feel my throat began to close and my eyes well up with tears, it’s time for me to go.
I was standing by the lounge, holding my passport on my arms. Stared at the time, it’s 5.30P.M. Christine will be busy having medical treatment, she won’t be having outdoor activities for awhile, so I’m free to go, to leave the country, to leave my friends, to leave my love.

The fog of sadness has clouded my life . The pain of leaving a loved one is more than I can take. I am running from the past, the guilt, and the pain. And you, Christine, are shrouded inside the fog, fighting pointlessly to hold on to a vanished dream. Going to Japan, is a whole new life, a whole new opportunity to meet someone over there. Still, I long to go with you, Christine, but my only response is to shake my head because I know that is impossible. I do not care what others think, I shall bow to you, and let my tears do the talking.

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2009, 1st Feb. Life is good in Japan, new friends, new school, new environment. 1 year had passed since the fateful incident in Malaysia. I’m cant love someone just yet as my heart is sealed to the girl I met 1 magical year ago.. Just like how Romeo would meet Juliet. School was tough, people here are kind and helpful. Bullet trains or the Shinkansen is my mode of transport here, Takoyaki became my favourite food. I’m all Japanese-fied. My Japanese language is slowly improving as I’m still going to spend 2 years here studying.

I went to Maruyama Park to jog everyday. Yes, like before, I still jog. Maruyama Park is a beautiful park located in Kyoto, where I am living right now. The park was crowded, but yet beautiful. Some embracing the lake, some having fun with their children and some eating ice cream while they spend their time catching up with each other’s life. Love birds are all around the park, young ones and the old ones.

Velvety wings of night is enveloping the park, the sky is glowing a magnificent shade of magenta and the stars are starting to twinkle cheekily. I stood by the lake, embracing the scene while I enjoy the weather. Warmth yet cooling at the same time soothing my soul, allaying my fears

By the time I decided to go home, something caught my attention, something I never thought possible. It’s the sound of someone playing the violin, the melodious yet sad sound invoking countless memories, painful and joyful ones, memories I had sought to lock away in the deepest , innermost part of my heart

A familiar yet faraway figure caught my eye, my breath quickens and my pulse races .God, is this a sign? My only chance at redemption for the person i had to turn my back on? the girl I loved, the only girl that brought joy and meaning into my life? the dark figure I saw in the park way back in Malaysia, the dark figure across the lake.

I have been dreaming this for 365 days, am I dreaming again? Please, please, please, without noticing it tears had streaked across my face . . .
I took flight, ran as fast as I can, along with the pounding rhythm of my breathing I know this is the only chance God will ever give me again, the chance to once again hold the girl I love, the chance to spend the rest of my time loving her again, making her happy . . .

I ran as I allowed myself to dream , to dream of what could have been and what could be in the future. Every step I take, every second I got closer, my heartbeat quickens into overdrive. Finally,I gasped "Christine..is that..you?" She turned around and . . .


Moral of the story: Cherish your boyfriend/girlfriend now and don’t allow petty squabbles to come between you. Don’t wake up one day 20 years from now and regret what you didn’t had a chance to say to your loved ones -> the almighty 3 words "I love you"


TheEnd.


Dear readers,
I will be leaving the ending of this story open as i don't want it to only be my story.
I wish that everyone who have read this story can truly feel how Ray felt. If you are Ray, what would be your ending?

Thanks a lot for reading...


SpecialThanksTo : NicholasSheum
LimZhuoZhi
HoTeckSern
LauHueeBeng
LeongBoonHong
LeeYuMey
LeeWyeMing

A Diary Of Ray Part 7 .

“ Dear Christine ,

We have already been together for some time; I must tell you those few weeks we’d spent together were the best days of my life. I can’t imagine what my life would be without you. I still remember the first time I got so close to you when we dance. But things had happened between Joe and I, things that I’d done that cause jealousy to exist between us and brought sorrow and misery by his best friend. I’d been making decision. This dinner maybe the most romantic one and my best opportunity to express my love to you. By the time you are reading this letter, I may be gone, to further my studies in Japan. We shall remain as we were before we met each other. Well, last but not least , I still can’t define how much I love you , how much happiness you’d put in my life. Take care..

From , Ray “

20^th March , School days. I’d been experiencing loneliness for these 3weeks. My parents came to school to get the transfer form. The relationship between Joe and I had been better, but not as the pees and carrot like we used to anymore. It’s a taboo for us to talk about Christine right now.

Teryn , the person who knows whats going on among 3 of us , did not mention anything about Christine too. She’d turned back to the old clumsy girl she used to be. I went home early , as I need to prepare my laugage. I swept my eyes across the desk, there was a letter, sitting right under my table lamp. A letter I’d been expecting. I ditched the letter, and I continued on my work.

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1^st April. One day before my flight to Japan. I suddenly had a strong urge that I’m leaving something undone. I stared at the letter, arguing with myself whether should I open up and take a look at what is inside or not. I grabbed the letter without having any other hesitation, I tore the letter cover until I see an opening. It was an invitation to a violin concert. It was from Christine, a V.I.P seat ticket. Looked at the time, I have 1 hour to prepare myself.

I reached the stadium later than I estimated . I never sat at the seat I was suppose to ,but instead I placed myself far away from the stage , a place where Christine cannot see me. When the spotlight are on her , her beauty is so stunning , it left me in awe. This is the first time I saw her in a formal dress , she looked so mature that everyone have to rub their eyes to make sure it was her. She shone so brightly on the stage , like she was born with this talent.

I stared her, standing on that stage and searching through the crowds as if finding someone. She played the violin so sweetly, yet, I still felt a tinge of sadness to it. But I doubt that anyone else in the stadium can’t hear it.

I left my seat after Christine’s turn is over, stood there at the exit as my leg suddenly felt heavier. I don’t want to leave her , but I had to. All out of a sudden , Christine called my name , her voice paralyzed me like a poison kiss. I didn’t want to turn around , but I can’t just walk away. I turned around and she was already running towards me. Later on , she was hugging me , so tight that I can barely move my arms. She whispered in my ears “ Thank you for the flowers you gave me. “. I don’t know who gave her the flowers but I did not deny what she said.

I saw Joe , glaring at us as we embrace each other. I gently pushed her off , and walked out of the exit. Christine shouted my name again , with a voice that she’s going to burst out with tears. Without noticing who is standing behind her. She ran out of the exit to chase me. All I can remember, I heard a huge crashing sound . Next thing I know , I saw Christine lying on a pile of blood.

Pieces of glass were laying around the floor. I turned back and go on my knee right beside her. My tears began to roll down , I didn’t know I was kneeling on the glass. I hugged her , as I wanted to tell her everything in my heart. Joe on the other side , staring at both of us, he reached into his pocket and called 911 right away. Both of us were so worried about Christine.

Minutes later , siren can be heard. The scene began to flood with humans. Christine was still unconscious..

To be continued…

A Diary Of Ray Part 6.

1st March, Life is a game. Friendship is not an exception, with true friends, they make every moment of the game worth your while . Love is like a guitar , the music might stop , the string might be broken , but the feelings of playing the guitar will remain forever.




We're through. Joe and I. Nothing can drag us close again anymore. My heart at war , a war between friendship and love. Its my fault for choosing everything without preparing ,


and now i'd lost my friend , I'd lost my confidence in loving. Even though i know , all is fair in love and war, it doesnt make me feel any better.




Joe and I havent talked in weeks already. Christine found out about the both of us. I can see from her messages , she is worried. I ignored her , Joe ignored me. I dont know what is in my heart , what is my desire anymore. Fixing things among Christine and I ain't gonna make me happy , make me proud of what im doing.




How I wish to let Joe know that I'd really miss the times we'd spent together , the old times we used to play soccer on the small road infront of that rusty gate of mine , the times we used to swim in a small lake at the end of the road , the times he used to push me so I can swing higher on that big tree at the park. Joe is not just a friend to me , he is more than a brother.




This is a chance to make up my mind , the girl I'd known for months? Or a friend we used to do everything together. God, give me strength . . .




My mind is clear , I'd made my decision ..




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5th March , I asked Christine out for dinner , a dinner she will never forget. I prepared a square table , covered with my mother's flowery cloth. Hung little linked rainbow lightbulbs on the tree in the garden , the tree with the swing Joe and I used to swing on. The weather was perfect , stars blinked as they are watching my plan moved on perfectly. Prepared 2 plates of spaghetti and a red candle , to make the scene romantic. Christine arrived after the park was cleared up. Wearing the red dress she used to wear in PulauRedang. A smile was pasted under her nose , eyes was squeented as she was showing how happy she is. She moved closer and gave me a kiss.


" Whats this about Ray? " She asked after she placed herself on that comfy chair I prepared for her. I shushed her when i placed my finger on her lips , and started eating. The glimmers on that tree made brought us romance , i replaced red wine with my mother's orange juice from the fridge. The whole eating scene was so silent , we can only hear the crickets sing.


On the other side of the table , Christine is sitting there , looking at me with the big wide smile and round beautiful eyes of hers. I tried to pull a smile on my face , eventually i failed. Spaghetti was stuffed into our stomach minutes later. She started making small talk, telling me funny jokes , but my heart wasnt in it , i remained silent as she searched my eyes for an answer. AN answer to a question i dont know.


By the time she found out something went wrong , she walked across the table and kissed me gently . "I'm here for you Ray." she whispered and hugged me. Not knowing what am I doing , I pushed her off gently. I reached into my pocket and took a small heart shaped box. Its a little necklace I bought for her , a little something I prepared for her. I placed that necklace on her neck , her beauty might stun every living thing on erath. She was told to keep the box , for a special propose. We embraced the sky after that , she shifted closer. Moonlight shone upon the waves on the lakes , light reflected on the necklace I gave her. I stared at her , looking deeply into her eyes , I can tell you have the preetiest eye in the world.

Time is ticking , I have to do what I am inteding to. " I gotta clean the table Christine" I said softly. She nodded . I left her sight and that maybe the last time I am going to get so close to her , maybe the last time I'll see her. I cleaned the table as fast as i could , packed everything and went to the dumpster. By the time i come back , Christine was crying beside the tree . She shouted " YOU LIED! " again... and again. I hid under the big slope beside the tree. Tears began to roll down my cheeks , my heart began to ache real bad. Im sorry Christine..

I'd told you whatever I wanted to in that letter .The letter i left under the box..


To Be Continued ..

A diary of Ray Part 5.

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"Ilove you , Christine." looking deeply into her eyes , " I..." My eyes managed to express what words could not. Joy delight and happiness shone like a beacon within my eyes.

She gazed into my eyes deeply, whilst she put a finger gently upon my lips to stop me from saying anything more. , She slipped her soft hand into my hand and my hand tightened upon hers. At that moment , I finally felt confort and love. I shifted closer. We both looked at the sky as the sun was going down from our sight. Sounds of birds chirpping made the mood even more romantic. She gently placed her head on my shoulder and played with my finger. I looked at her , faint blushes of red appeared on aher cheek as she chilled for sometime.

Streetlights were lighting up and thats when the park crowd began to dispersed . She took her leisure standing up, as if wanting the moment to last forever. Before she left, she enveloped me in her warm embrace as i held her in my arms, feeling the warmth and softness of her body against mine . Looking so innocent , i really hoped she would never let go of me. She closed her eyes , and slowly.. very slowly , she angled her lips to mine. lips ever so slightly turned up for the kiss she wanted, the kiss i would give her. I met her warm lips midway and felt her breath against my lips, warm as a summer breeze. Even though the kiss lasted for no more than 10 seconds, this is a sensation i will remember forever should i live till 80 or a 100. Two passionate souls whose first shared kiss neither will ever forget.

I grabbed her around the waist , and she pulled her lips away. We smiled at each other for a second and I gave her a light feathery kiss on her forehead.


Today , is the day i feel that life is not meaningless but full of surprise and hopes.

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20th Feb , First day of school after the weekends. My relationship with Christine was suppose to be secret for awhile , just incase anything happened in the early stage of our relationship , i wont ever be

embarassed of our relationship but i really wanted to keep a low profile as this was about the two of us. Its not just about me. Someone unfortunately, from my school must had busy spreading rumours about us.

I reached school late. It was the second period and i was still changing in my bathroom. When i reached school , everyone stared at me with their googly eyes. I pretended everything was fine and i continued walking. Things didnt go as expected . The girls from the cafeteria began pointing and gossiping, at me. I am a little mad but girls so i didnt pay much mind .

I started to suspect my shirt or maybe i wore my sister's socks to school. I dashed into the toilet and locked myself up. I checked from my hair to my toes. Nothing was wrong with me except for the plain old Ray i was.

I got into the classroom and it was a complete silence. Why? I dont know , i gave the classroom a millionwatt smile and went to my seat. My best friend , Joe , gave me

hateful glare. I was stunned, if looks could kill, i would be lying right next to my grandparents in the cemetery already. I started to get nervous , I really hope i dint get in trouble. Teryn came to me during recess time.

" I know about you and Christine , Ray. " She wasn't happy , I could tell from her eyes. " Christine told you? " I was expecting 'Yes' from her lips. " Rumours spread , saying you slept with her and so on "

The frustrating look on her face frozed me right where i stood. . "Ray , I think you need to talk to Joe about this. " She walked away , leaving me all the questions and not an answer in sight

I met Joe , in the classroom. Our looks in the eyes wasnt the old kind of 'whats up, buddy? kind of look anymore. I walked up to him , "Whats wrong , Joe ? " He stared at me , angry words burst forth from his mouth, " What do you think ? Maybe you should tell the whole world how proud you are ! " I'd never seen Joe so mad before ,

esspecially since we went way back . we had been best friends since preschool and we could never be separated. He shouted so that the whole class could hear him , as he continues

"You were my friend Ray , but u disapoint me instead of encouraging me ! "

He grabbed his bag , and walked out of the class. Suddenly , i felt so guilty, but the knowledge that i was innocent kept me going for the rest of the day as I spent my entire day on my light green chair ,

wondering how my life could become such a mess in the space of a few days . I was so worried that something bad might happen to our friendship. I moped around my desk , wondereing what did i ever do to make Joe mad .

Teryn , she came by again and sat down right beside me after school. Same place where she sat down that day when she told me christine was in love. I laughed bitterly at the irony of it. But it wont be any exciting news anymore.

She glared at me , and said " I was told to see you , as a messenger. " She inhaled , " Joe was the one who asked Christine out on New Year"s Eve , He was the one who introduced Christine to his loyal bestfriend , You. He wanted you to feel important to him.

Joe, he was in love with Christine since November last year. Christine told him about your relationship with her Ray , and Joe , he was so upset. Im not saying this is your fault , its noboday's fault so dont put the blame on yourself , alright ? "

Teryn put a comforting hand on my shoulder after she told me the truth , I didnt know Joe had a crush on Christine , Joe is my bestfriend.The bitter irony of it struck me again. Maybe I sinned in my past life, thats why things have to end this way...


To be continued..

A diary of Ray Part 4.

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She gave me a smile , without an answer , she stood up and said " Lets go". Is that a yes ? I dont know , without a confirmation , i just looked at her walking her way through the dark paths ,and slowly dissapear. The park was so quiet and crickets begin to sing as the park was so peaceful , and i went home , leaving the puzzle undone.

"Happy Valentine Christine."

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16th feb. Had you ever felt love before ? A girl asked me with a serious expression on her face.

I went to school , as usual. the air felt cool and refreshing , the cool breeze hit my face, revitalizing me, temporarily letting me
forget my crush on christine . Everyone was either huddled up in a corner to catch an afternoon siesta or walking as fast as they could to their destinations. , nothing could be heard except for the sound of footsteps and the tapping sound of raindrops. Teachers' cars were leaving as school had ended.I was sitting alone at the canteen table , flipping the pages of my story book. Teryn bought her lunch and came to the table i was sitting.

"Mind if i sit here ? " She asked.

"Have a seat." I said as I faked a big smile as i really wanted to be alone to my feelings

She asked me alot about my love life , I told her that i was in love somebody. All out of a sudden , she mentioned about Christine. She told me Christine was her primary school classmate and best friend since then. This conversation become more meaningful as a million questions popped out from her mouth.

"Ray , have you ever fell in love with a girl u in the first sight you see her? " Curiosity was plastered all over her face , pressuring me as she was expecting some postive answer from me.
I paused and continue to read my book , She came nearer to my ear and whispered ,

"I think Christine is in love ." She was giving me an evil smile "Not you silly!" and walked away into the pouring rain with her umbrella.

After what Teryn had said , i was being curious all day long , thinking is Christine in love with someone else ? I took a long shower , and i cant get it off my mind. I looked at myself in the mirror , being obssesed of what Teryn said earlier just now , wondering why am i not borned with a handsome face that easily attracts girls.


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18th feb , im tired as i cant get enough sleep for the past 2 days. Stress kept me awake. I wandered around my mind , making up beautiful scenes like what i saw earlier in the movies. Candles , music and any other things that bring romance to life.

I met Christine at the CentralPark Hill around 6 , We went jogging for awhile and waited until sunset. We joked about the old folks who are walking in funny way , bouncing their buttocks up and down.

Sunset was beautiful , the sunshine had blinded the colour of the scenery but you're still as colourful as u'd always been in my heart. She stared at me in a different way , pulling her gasp and told me she is in love , just like what Teryn told me that day.

"So it was true ? " i asked her while looking at the sun.

"Teryn told you huh ? She's such a chatterbox ! " blush began to appear on her cheeks.

" So who is the lucky guy? " Faking the smile out of my face , trying to be cool as i was facing to the sun , pretending to feel happy for her as i was expecting some other guy's name.

She wiped her sweat off , and turned her head giving me an awkward look.

"I had.. the best day of my life on valentines day. I'd found a guy that really cares about me and i think i had a crush on him , he was willing to sacrafice his lonely valentine just to cheer the innocent girl up." She said this under her breath.

"Uhh.." i looked at her , trying hard to believe what i heard from her was all true. Pinching my other hand as hard as i could , i was so relieved that i felt pain. I looked into her dark bronish pupils , the reflection in her eyes had given me the courage to open my mouth and said.

"I love you , Christine"...


To Be Continued..

A diary of Ray Part 3 .

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"ohmygod! RAY?!" She shouted by a sudden. I smiled at her and apolagised for leaving PulauRedang without letting her know. I spent the whole trip in TimesSquare talking to her.

"I kinda.. erm.. " I was so nervous as i was going to tell her i lost her number.

"You lost my number huh? Give me your phone. " She gave herself a miss call from my phone.

I smiled and told her that im sorry. After that , we went for movies with the other guys together.
She sat beside me , was played on the wide screen. She enjoyed watching the movie , and i enjoyed watching the serious looks of her in the cinema.In every bright moments,i tried to avoid her from noticing me that im looking at her. I acted cool in every way im sitting.so that i could catch her attention. In every 10 seconds,u blinked your eyes.in every blink of an eye,i got stuned by your beaty-ness. Baby i hope i can put my fragile arms on that soft shoulder of yours and telling you how perfect you are.

Its 8pm and everyone is heading home. I stood under the bus stop with Christine while waiting for our parents. It was raining , I unzipped my jacket and used it as an umbrella. I got closer to her and tried to cover her a little. She rubbed her forearm giving me a sign that she's freezing. I saw my mother's car turning in and reaching the bus stop , i quickly cover her with my only protection and ran to my mother's car. I waved to her inside my car and she gave me a look that she's trying to say thankyou.

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14th Feb ,Valentines Day ! I spent my day alone sulking on my bed whirst , listening to couples dedicating love songs to their loved ones on FlyFM. I looked through the window as god's tears tapped on the glass. Listening to the rhythm of the raindrops , I wonder why am i the only one dateless and alone on valentines day ? The sky was turned darker as the night approached. Soon it started to rain like cats and dogs. The weather outside seemed gloomy and yet , sad.

I recived a text from Christine , telling me that she had planned to celebrate her valentines alone. Instead of sticking to her plans , she went out with her friends. She told me that she was sad because she saw her exboyfriend holding hands with another girl. That girl used to be Christine's best friend , but that particular friend of hers got closer to her exboyfriend hence the manipulating relationship.

I went to CentralPark as fast as I could , I searched around but she was no where to be seen. I felt the wind's presence on my face. I heard somebody humming a tune that was so familiar that it makes me even more curious. I followed that tune , desperately looking for her. I knew it was Christine , the one who was humming that tune. Then, I saw a dark figure sitting by the lake , all curled up. I could hear her sobbing now. As i moved forward to approach that person , I wondered why would someone sit by the lake at such time , especially when a typical heavy down pour has just ended. As i moved closer , that person merged , then I saw her..

She wiped her tears off her face . I sat down beside her , She looked like an angel as her face glown under the moonlight , the moon was bright that night. She gave me a bitter smile and continued looking at the lake.

"It's valentines day and its a very special day Christine , forget about the past and just have a blast just for this day" I said to her.

She looked at me in disbelief , then her eyes started to flood with tears. She thanked me for encouraging her. Her tears rolled down the rosy cheeks of hers as she smiled at me.

She laid her head on my shoulder. When the light breeze blew against your hair , I smelled a sweet fragrance in the air.

Moonlight shone upon the ground and the street lights was turned on. The park looked really romantic as though it is a perfect place for couples to spend their time together. She was embracing the moon. My phone beeped , it was already 11.50pm.

The is my chance ? 10 more minutes till the end of Feb 14.

"Christine?" I called her name in a soft tone.

"Hmm?"

"Will you be my valentine?"


To be continued ....

A diary of Ray Part 2 .

4th Feb. *shooosh* played by the nature of the sea. Bright light of the sun shining throught my eyes. I looked around searching but i couldnt see you anywhere. A note was left on my chest.

"Sorry for falling asleep last night , meet me at the karaoke room at 9pm , Dont Be Late! By . Christine. ;) "

i smiled while lookin at the note , i finally got to know her name , Christine was the most beautiful name i have ever heard of in my life , and so i walked off the beach and headed back to my cabin. My parents gave me a suspicious look and i actually got pissed off . Had my breakfast , and then went for snorkling.Enjoyed the wind that blew over my hair.slowly my neat and tidy hair became messy.she told me it wasnt the looks of me that matters, it was me myself. The boat stopped and everyone jumped into the sea with their snorkling gear on. Daddy tighten my jacket so i wouldnt drown into the water. She laughed over my shamefulness and then jumped into the water.

We met each other under the water and gave each other a smile. Your hair was messed up , like an angel with messy hair. You pointed at the corals and i gave you an odd look. You dived deeper while pulling my hand along. The surrounding was beautiful but what i cherish the most is the while u grabbed my hand and swim together. I hope the time could just stay still in this perfect moment but sadly it was not to be, the life guard had blew his wistle and we had go back to our cabins. I waited on my bed , watching SpongebobSquarepants , hoping the time would move faster as i was so desperate to hear your voice again.

Finally it reached 9pm , i dashed out from my cabin and reached the karaokae room by seconds. She was earlier than i am and we went into the karaokae room . Thankgod the room was empty and i could spend all my time there alone with her. We sang alot of songs together, no matter how out of tune she sings , she'll always be perfect in my eyes. Her voice left my mind empty and all i could hear was an angel singing right infront of me. This thought ran through my mind over and over . Then, i sang her a song , " Fall For You - SecondhandSerenade." and she told me i sang well. In a split second , she touched my hand , i could feel the warmness in her. We enjoyed ourselves in the karaokae room, singing our socks off . A knock on a door told us that our singing had to come to an end as the karaokae room was closing. Its 12 am midnight , i had to go back to my cabin and pack my clothes as tomorrow is the day i leave PulauRedang.

"Meeting you girl , is the best thing that ever happened in my life " i whispered to myself as i made the long lonely walk back to my cabin
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5th feb , Its goodbye to PulauRedang and you. Will i ever meet you again ? I was trying so hard to reach you , hoping that u might come and give me one last smile , but i just remembered that i dint tell you that i was leaving today. I looked at my clock , its 7 in the morning and you're probably still drooling all over your pillow, dreamin about wtever that makes u happy. I stepped onto the boat and slowly drove off the island. Watching the waves of the sea reminds me of the night we spent on the beach. I suddenly felt excited as i remembered that you left me your number on a piece of paper.

I searched everywhere , my pockets and my bags, everywhere. I think i left it on the beach that night and was angry at the fact i dint even noticed that i'd lost something so important to me. I was so pissed off all day long until i reach home after spending 9 hours on the bus thinking how stupid i am to lose your number. I was being emotional and i just ignored whoever talked to me on the bus. My phone was out of battery and i was hoping i could tell someone, anyone, about what happened in PulauRedang.

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13th Feb , I was asked to go TimesSquare with Joe and some of my buddies.

"Ray , lets go TimesSquare tomorrow , theres someone i want you to meet. " i received this message from Joe last night before going to bed.

I reached there early along with Wendy , Joe and KaiLun. We walked around while waiting for that special someone Joe wanted us to meet. He then recieved a call while we were looking around in Vincci , Wendy was so desperate for shoes so we had to accompany her.

"Guys , i want you to meet Christine. " a sudden chill came to me as i was shocked , hoping that this Christine is the Christine i had met before.

As i turned around , I saw her smiling at us...


To Be Continued...

A diary of Ray Part 1 .

It was months ago , while i was hanging out with my friends near CentralPark. We were sitting by the roadside , throwing rocks onto the road. Counting how many cars passed us . My name is Ray and i was borned in 1993 Sep 11.

We were having fun , sparying the snowy foams at each other. Its was the first day of 2008. The place was crowded and i cant find my way to squeeze myself out of this mess. The sound of laughters were all over the place , people shouting "HAPPY2008" ! I somehow felt life is meaningless and i wondered why people celebrated every new year ? I manage to escape among the crowd and sat down by the wet grasses nearby. Greeting messages were bursting my phone and the sound of my phone ringing had gave me a headache. All out of a sudden , a gentle laughter silenced the whole scene in my mind , i saw you swinging your hair to avoid the raining foam that might land on your hair. My eyes glammed on you , hoping that you might stop and stare at me , just for a second if she look at me , it might light up my day. My phone rang and i was carried away .

Joe , " where are you Ray , we're looking all over for you."
i answered " empty spaces right beside the crowd"
Joe, "alright."

I turned back after i hung up , you were gone . I looked everywhere for you , hoping to see you 1 more time before i leave , eventually i failed to do so. My friends came and we had to go home.
Joe's mother is already waiting for us at the bus stop.

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2nd Feb , I went to PulauRedang along with my family and my dad's friends. Somehow i thought of you again. Thinking how stupid of me not getting your number but just got stunned by your beautyness. I was sitting down alone at the bar. Glared at the beach watching how the kids enjoy their life , jealousing why cant i enjoy life just like them , what am i really lacking of ? A piece of toast with peanut butter covered all over , is this how i enjoy my life ? I somehow got pissed off and blaming God for bringing me into this world. While i was busy blaming the God , a boat arrived . A group of people walked down slowly , first the mom and dads , then the kids. and i saw you again , holding tight to your father's hand to prevent falling into the water. I was so hypered and i was thinking this is the chance god gave me to meet you. I cant move my legs , you came closer and you end up standing right beside my table. The bright sunlight shone upon your evil-like beauty face , and that was the first time i saw the angel in my life. I was so so nervous.
You walked passed and you gave your little sister a smile , i smiled too , cause i'd never seen such beautiful smile in my life. You walked away with you family to your cabin , room number 32a and i noticed that we're neighbours. Later that night , everyone dressed up in proper clothing for the event of the day , dance night. i was wearing my dad's black coat and a white tie. I waited for you to arrive , and finally you came. Your the preetiest girl in the hall i must say , wearing a red dress and a red high heels. You caught everyone's attention and you caught my heart while you say hello and gave me a smile. You sat there alone , right infront of where i am. I stood up and i decided to ask you for a dance .

"wanna dance ? " i asked with my right hand out and left hand at my back.

"erm .." she paused , "sure!"

She grabbed my hand and stood up , I grabbed her waist and she placed her hands on my shoulder. We began to move our feet , by the beat of the song playing. EnriqueIglesias-Hero was played . She somehow gave me a shining light in my heart, telling me never ever think life is meaningless. I closed my eyes and just danced along the music with her. I counted the moment , 4munites and 9seconds. Althought its not long , but that maybe the best thing that ever happened to me. She gave me a smile while staring at my eyes , and just walked away after the song ended. I never got the chance to say thankyou neighter got the chance to say goodbye.

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3rd Feb , Rise and shine ! I walked out onto the beach and she was coming out from her cabin. She was wearing her beach wear , i almost tripped while looking at her sexy wear.

"Hey!" a smile was pasted on her face. " You were the guy who danced with me last night. I dint know we were neighbours"

"yeah , haha" and i got nothing else to say.

"you wanna go to the beach?" she asked .

"yeah!" i replied immediatly.

We walked by the beach together , i got to know her better. We asked each other questions and i end up getting her number. I was so happy and i somehow became very close to her. We spent the whole day being together on the beach until the stars shine at night. We lied down on the soft sand and we started counting the stars , i was counting the moment we spent together. We were relaxing ourselves while listening to the sound of nature . The sound of water splashing on the shore had brought us into our dreams. I looked at her , she smiled even when she's dreaming. I listened to her breathing , along with my heartbeat , its was at the same rhythm. I felt so comfortable and relaxed when i was with her.

To be continued...

Would You Be My Valentines?

i know its way pass Valentines

but i still wanna pass these words to the ppl out there

for all the ppl *retards* who dont know what Valentine means.Im here to explain for u* dumb shit* -

Valentine's Day or Saint Valentine's Day is a holiday celebrated on February 14 by many people throughout the world. In the West, it is the traditional day on which lovers express their love for each other by sending Valentine's cards, presenting flowers, or offering confectionery. The holiday is named after two among the numerous Early Christian martyrs named Valentine. The day became associated with romantic love in the circle of Geoffrey Chaucer in the High Middle Ages, when the tradition of courtly love flourished.

for further information u retards.please search for Valentines Day in wikipedia

i'll jump straight to the point.some get to celebrate Valentines day with couples.and some celebrate alone.




well for the ppl who's still single or waiting to be accepted in Valentines even though Valentines is last week.dont be depressed.me myself celebrated Valentines alone with few of my single friends.



well this doesnt mean that we're gays



and for the singles out there...single doesnt means ur gay.but if u insist on being gay.GO AHEAD!BUY A STRAP-ON DILDO IN CASE!


*sry i was carried away*




an hour ago,i was searching for linkin park songs

i found a song called 'Valentine's Day'

quite a nice song

but its mostly for singles

and when i scroll down

the comments inspired me

those comments about being single and all

its kinda freaks me out and in the same way the comments they wrote relates to me in some way

and that gave me the idea of blogging bout Valentines day.

i feel sad for the singles our there.and myself as well.

these are the comments

mosltov (7 hours ago)

i think they should not make valentines day all it is out to be anymore.because like alot of you i am single.but that day made me feel like a loser.ive been single a long time.i mvoed last year and im in high school so its been tough times, but anyways im a loser because i dont reallly have alot of friends and i turn to video games because they are my only escape.but if u get someone who is depressed over it, chances are they committ suicide because they feel that it is an important day.

ryeguy48 (6 hours ago)

I pretend to hate Valentine's Day because of the "Hallmark" thing.
But I really appreciate the meaning behind the holiday. I mean I've always been single. And in the past few years there have been two girls who I've LOVED like for real. But I never got to be with them...this song almost makes me cry. I haven't been able to cry anymore lately tho. Idk why. Maybe I can't.

well this 2 comments reminded me of myself.and i found this website.its a rant bout Valentines Day------http://nonpc.org/luv.html

the website are usually rant of ppl who thinks Valentines Day sucks.well, u guys should try and check out the website.example...

Paige's Rant Sent Feb 29:
valentine's day....love......all that crap, sure it's great if you have it but if you don't it sucks to be you. i know that. everyone gets so hyped up about the perfect gift or their most memorable love and you're sitting there listening with a broken heart wondering why you never have great times like this. valentine's day is just another excuse to lower self-esteem, too. seriously...i mean you feel like totally worthless if you don't have a valentine and you get all depressed watchin mushy gushy love movies all day eating choclate untill you get sick just to chase away all the stupid feelings all the sweet actors and actresses have that seem un-gettable to you.....in the immediate future at least....blah valentines day it's a joke. get over it cupid we hate you.

Joseph Wrote on Jan 17:
What's worse than not having a date for Valentines day - never having a date for Valentines day. I don't even think there should be such a thing as Valentines day in the first place, but it doesn't exactly make me feel any better knowing that it does exist and I am alone. Valentines is just another insincere occasion to "prove" your love to someone else - as if paying for dinners/ movies/ dates and christmas & birthday presents isn't enough we have to have a whole day devoted to proving our love to the women in our lives. Yes women made this holiday what it is, so they could either be ecstatic or suffer and eat chocolate, kind of ironic huh? If it was up to guys there would be no Valentines day. All it does is remind people like me that there's love out there, which isn't actually too comforting when you're alone. Knowing that there's love out there and you don't have any makes you feel like there's something wrong with you - as anyone who has ever heard the "you'll find the right guy/girl someday" speech knows all too well. And all this is for a holiday celebrating a guy who got fed to lions hundreds of years ago - seems appropriate doesn't it?

linkinpark-Valentines Day

My insides are turned to ash, so slow
And blew away as I collapsed, so cold
A black wind took them away, from sight
And held the darkness over day, that night

And the clouds above move closer
Looking so disatisfied
But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

I used to be my own protection, but not now
Cause my path has lost direction, somehow
A black wind took you away, from sight
And held the darkness over day, that night

And the clouds above move closer
Looking so disatisfied
And the ground below grew colder
As they put you down inside
But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

So now you're gone
And I was wrong
I never knew what it was like
To be alone

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OK-tc3a7BMQ

*sry if i made this post emo.i didnt meant it*

now for the couples

whats the sweetest moment u ever seen?

an old couple...holding hands...growing old...

its unusual to see even an old couple can last their love till old and saggy.

omg this is disgusting

and whats hurting to see is and arguement between a couple

Relationships-of all kinds-are like sand
held in you hand.held loosely,with an
open hand,the sand remains where it is.
The minute you close your hand and
squeeze tightly to hold on,the sand trickles
through your fingers.You may hold on to
some of it,but most will be spilled.An relationship
is like that.Held loosely,with respect
and freedom for the other person,it is likely
to remain intact.But hold too tightly,too
possessively,and the relationship slips away
and is lost.
*p.s:this is not written by me.*

so please...cherish the ones you love most.You never lose by loving.You always lose by holding back.

im single,so i dont really have much to talk bout couples.so,i think i'll stop here.

here are some pics i think its nice.i found it in my sis's pendrive.hehehe




*hope i didnt offended anyone*

Happy Valentines Day to all the couples out there ! keep up the good work!

and for the single,dont hesitate to ask 'would you be my valentines'
you never know whats coming for ya.good luck to all singles out there.

by nic.

Lunch anyone?

nowadays we go for lunch straight after school

and the annoying part is which to go to

• Ipoh Chicken Rice Shop
• Kanna Curry House
• Restaurant Satelite

the food in ipoh is always nice and tasty
but the fucked up part is the price

me:'mai dan mm goiii~'
waiter:'ok'
me:'gei do?'
waiter:'gao kau lok.'

and i just ate 1 god damn chicken rice and 'teh ping'


and i started digging my wallet to pay for the cb chicken rice and teh ping

and i started giving out my innocent look


and i thought i can escape but in the end

i still pay -.-



and recently there was a phobia of going to Kanna

the food there was always so unhygienic


i think u know what i meant


and lastly,Satellite

(never thought i found this on yahoo)

well the food here is okay but the thing is

the song played there -.-

the songs are so god damn old

its like the 70s

besides that

it always scares the shit outta me when i pay for the food

this is me

cause the cashier got the creepy cb pedophile looks who scares the shit outta me

this looks exactly like the guy -.-

think about it.which 1 will u choose from?
Ipoh?Kanna?Satellite?


from nic.

Bomba Kursus. 7 Feb

Me and ZhuoZhi somehow went for the Bomba Kursus with 7 other guys and 1 teacher.

took a van from chs , and had a little chat.

the fun part starts here , when we reach Tmn Medan , we looked around and Amanda shouted .

reason ? we're the only white ppl in that school lol?
Pn. Siti Noraizan came too.


we sat at the canteen to prepare and trained marching a little.

guess what , when they started to gather ppl , US the chinese , DONT UNDERSTAND A SHIT FROM THE COMMANDERS

and we was like , LOOKING AROUND AND DO WHAT PPL DO . -.-


the only one making us HOT is Xiaorong.

almost every guy commander came and ask what school are we from ?

AND THE EYES ARE O.O to XiaoRong .



just like this.

" Ni Men Shen Me Xue Xiao " asked a commander
"Cathloic ." I answered
" Ohh , Catholic Hen Da Hor" said the commander with GOOGLE eyes like this O,O on XR's private part LOL

We kinda had some marching practice

and the commanders gave comments.

we never got seleceted but the girls got selected. all of them O.O

we went out to the mamak nearby and had our lunch. we slacked there for a long time and teachers texted us and scolded us.

we then ran back to the school and used BoonJiaZhi went to the toilet for 30min as a reason .

by the time we got back , they're gathering alrd . we totally embarressed ourselves infront of the crowd -.-

we had hose marching after that , everyone is suppose to solo and take the hose and run -.- imagine the weight of that thing !

me and zhuozhi then ask permission to go back to school and guess what. PnSitiNoraizan asked me to see pn limyokekeng on tuesday. i was like WTF ? both of us never do anything wrong and we gotta see pnlimyokekeng?

this is from me and zhuozhi to pnSitiNoraizan



we headed back to school anyway and went to nic's house. we had some crazy time there =D

By. loon , zhuozhi