Wednesday, February 25, 2009

A diary of Ray Part 3 .


"ohmygod! RAY?!" She shouted by a sudden. I smiled at her and apolagised for leaving PulauRedang without letting her know. I spent the whole trip in TimesSquare talking to her.

"I kinda.. erm.. " I was so nervous as i was going to tell her i lost her number.

"You lost my number huh? Give me your phone. " She gave herself a miss call from my phone.

I smiled and told her that im sorry. After that , we went for movies with the other guys together.
She sat beside me , was played on the wide screen. She enjoyed watching the movie , and i enjoyed watching the serious looks of her in the cinema.In every bright moments,i tried to avoid her from noticing me that im looking at her. I acted cool in every way im that i could catch her attention. In every 10 seconds,u blinked your every blink of an eye,i got stuned by your beaty-ness. Baby i hope i can put my fragile arms on that soft shoulder of yours and telling you how perfect you are.

Its 8pm and everyone is heading home. I stood under the bus stop with Christine while waiting for our parents. It was raining , I unzipped my jacket and used it as an umbrella. I got closer to her and tried to cover her a little. She rubbed her forearm giving me a sign that she's freezing. I saw my mother's car turning in and reaching the bus stop , i quickly cover her with my only protection and ran to my mother's car. I waved to her inside my car and she gave me a look that she's trying to say thankyou.


14th Feb ,Valentines Day ! I spent my day alone sulking on my bed whirst , listening to couples dedicating love songs to their loved ones on FlyFM. I looked through the window as god's tears tapped on the glass. Listening to the rhythm of the raindrops , I wonder why am i the only one dateless and alone on valentines day ? The sky was turned darker as the night approached. Soon it started to rain like cats and dogs. The weather outside seemed gloomy and yet , sad.

I recived a text from Christine , telling me that she had planned to celebrate her valentines alone. Instead of sticking to her plans , she went out with her friends. She told me that she was sad because she saw her exboyfriend holding hands with another girl. That girl used to be Christine's best friend , but that particular friend of hers got closer to her exboyfriend hence the manipulating relationship.

I went to CentralPark as fast as I could , I searched around but she was no where to be seen. I felt the wind's presence on my face. I heard somebody humming a tune that was so familiar that it makes me even more curious. I followed that tune , desperately looking for her. I knew it was Christine , the one who was humming that tune. Then, I saw a dark figure sitting by the lake , all curled up. I could hear her sobbing now. As i moved forward to approach that person , I wondered why would someone sit by the lake at such time , especially when a typical heavy down pour has just ended. As i moved closer , that person merged , then I saw her..

She wiped her tears off her face . I sat down beside her , She looked like an angel as her face glown under the moonlight , the moon was bright that night. She gave me a bitter smile and continued looking at the lake.

"It's valentines day and its a very special day Christine , forget about the past and just have a blast just for this day" I said to her.

She looked at me in disbelief , then her eyes started to flood with tears. She thanked me for encouraging her. Her tears rolled down the rosy cheeks of hers as she smiled at me.

She laid her head on my shoulder. When the light breeze blew against your hair , I smelled a sweet fragrance in the air.

Moonlight shone upon the ground and the street lights was turned on. The park looked really romantic as though it is a perfect place for couples to spend their time together. She was embracing the moon. My phone beeped , it was already 11.50pm.

The is my chance ? 10 more minutes till the end of Feb 14.

"Christine?" I called her name in a soft tone.


"Will you be my valentine?"

To be continued ....

Monday, February 23, 2009

A diary of Ray Part 2 .

4th Feb. *shooosh* played by the nature of the sea. Bright light of the sun shining throught my eyes. I looked around searching but i couldnt see you anywhere. A note was left on my chest.

"Sorry for falling asleep last night , meet me at the karaoke room at 9pm , Dont Be Late! By . Christine. ;) "

i smiled while lookin at the note , i finally got to know her name , Christine was the most beautiful name i have ever heard of in my life , and so i walked off the beach and headed back to my cabin. My parents gave me a suspicious look and i actually got pissed off . Had my breakfast , and then went for snorkling.Enjoyed the wind that blew over my hair.slowly my neat and tidy hair became messy.she told me it wasnt the looks of me that matters, it was me myself. The boat stopped and everyone jumped into the sea with their snorkling gear on. Daddy tighten my jacket so i wouldnt drown into the water. She laughed over my shamefulness and then jumped into the water.

We met each other under the water and gave each other a smile. Your hair was messed up , like an angel with messy hair. You pointed at the corals and i gave you an odd look. You dived deeper while pulling my hand along. The surrounding was beautiful but what i cherish the most is the while u grabbed my hand and swim together. I hope the time could just stay still in this perfect moment but sadly it was not to be, the life guard had blew his wistle and we had go back to our cabins. I waited on my bed , watching SpongebobSquarepants , hoping the time would move faster as i was so desperate to hear your voice again.

Finally it reached 9pm , i dashed out from my cabin and reached the karaokae room by seconds. She was earlier than i am and we went into the karaokae room . Thankgod the room was empty and i could spend all my time there alone with her. We sang alot of songs together, no matter how out of tune she sings , she'll always be perfect in my eyes. Her voice left my mind empty and all i could hear was an angel singing right infront of me. This thought ran through my mind over and over . Then, i sang her a song , " Fall For You - SecondhandSerenade." and she told me i sang well. In a split second , she touched my hand , i could feel the warmness in her. We enjoyed ourselves in the karaokae room, singing our socks off . A knock on a door told us that our singing had to come to an end as the karaokae room was closing. Its 12 am midnight , i had to go back to my cabin and pack my clothes as tomorrow is the day i leave PulauRedang.

"Meeting you girl , is the best thing that ever happened in my life " i whispered to myself as i made the long lonely walk back to my cabin

5th feb , Its goodbye to PulauRedang and you. Will i ever meet you again ? I was trying so hard to reach you , hoping that u might come and give me one last smile , but i just remembered that i dint tell you that i was leaving today. I looked at my clock , its 7 in the morning and you're probably still drooling all over your pillow, dreamin about wtever that makes u happy. I stepped onto the boat and slowly drove off the island. Watching the waves of the sea reminds me of the night we spent on the beach. I suddenly felt excited as i remembered that you left me your number on a piece of paper.

I searched everywhere , my pockets and my bags, everywhere. I think i left it on the beach that night and was angry at the fact i dint even noticed that i'd lost something so important to me. I was so pissed off all day long until i reach home after spending 9 hours on the bus thinking how stupid i am to lose your number. I was being emotional and i just ignored whoever talked to me on the bus. My phone was out of battery and i was hoping i could tell someone, anyone, about what happened in PulauRedang.


13th Feb , I was asked to go TimesSquare with Joe and some of my buddies.

"Ray , lets go TimesSquare tomorrow , theres someone i want you to meet. " i received this message from Joe last night before going to bed.

I reached there early along with Wendy , Joe and KaiLun. We walked around while waiting for that special someone Joe wanted us to meet. He then recieved a call while we were looking around in Vincci , Wendy was so desperate for shoes so we had to accompany her.

"Guys , i want you to meet Christine. " a sudden chill came to me as i was shocked , hoping that this Christine is the Christine i had met before.

As i turned around , I saw her smiling at us...

To Be Continued...

Sunday, February 22, 2009

A diary of Ray Part 1 .

It was months ago , while i was hanging out with my friends near CentralPark. We were sitting by the roadside , throwing rocks onto the road. Counting how many cars passed us . My name is Ray and i was borned in 1993 Sep 11.

We were having fun , sparying the snowy foams at each other. Its was the first day of 2008. The place was crowded and i cant find my way to squeeze myself out of this mess. The sound of laughters were all over the place , people shouting "HAPPY2008" ! I somehow felt life is meaningless and i wondered why people celebrated every new year ? I manage to escape among the crowd and sat down by the wet grasses nearby. Greeting messages were bursting my phone and the sound of my phone ringing had gave me a headache. All out of a sudden , a gentle laughter silenced the whole scene in my mind , i saw you swinging your hair to avoid the raining foam that might land on your hair. My eyes glammed on you , hoping that you might stop and stare at me , just for a second if she look at me , it might light up my day. My phone rang and i was carried away .

Joe , " where are you Ray , we're looking all over for you."
i answered " empty spaces right beside the crowd"
Joe, "alright."

I turned back after i hung up , you were gone . I looked everywhere for you , hoping to see you 1 more time before i leave , eventually i failed to do so. My friends came and we had to go home.
Joe's mother is already waiting for us at the bus stop.


2nd Feb , I went to PulauRedang along with my family and my dad's friends. Somehow i thought of you again. Thinking how stupid of me not getting your number but just got stunned by your beautyness. I was sitting down alone at the bar. Glared at the beach watching how the kids enjoy their life , jealousing why cant i enjoy life just like them , what am i really lacking of ? A piece of toast with peanut butter covered all over , is this how i enjoy my life ? I somehow got pissed off and blaming God for bringing me into this world. While i was busy blaming the God , a boat arrived . A group of people walked down slowly , first the mom and dads , then the kids. and i saw you again , holding tight to your father's hand to prevent falling into the water. I was so hypered and i was thinking this is the chance god gave me to meet you. I cant move my legs , you came closer and you end up standing right beside my table. The bright sunlight shone upon your evil-like beauty face , and that was the first time i saw the angel in my life. I was so so nervous.
You walked passed and you gave your little sister a smile , i smiled too , cause i'd never seen such beautiful smile in my life. You walked away with you family to your cabin , room number 32a and i noticed that we're neighbours. Later that night , everyone dressed up in proper clothing for the event of the day , dance night. i was wearing my dad's black coat and a white tie. I waited for you to arrive , and finally you came. Your the preetiest girl in the hall i must say , wearing a red dress and a red high heels. You caught everyone's attention and you caught my heart while you say hello and gave me a smile. You sat there alone , right infront of where i am. I stood up and i decided to ask you for a dance .

"wanna dance ? " i asked with my right hand out and left hand at my back.

"erm .." she paused , "sure!"

She grabbed my hand and stood up , I grabbed her waist and she placed her hands on my shoulder. We began to move our feet , by the beat of the song playing. EnriqueIglesias-Hero was played . She somehow gave me a shining light in my heart, telling me never ever think life is meaningless. I closed my eyes and just danced along the music with her. I counted the moment , 4munites and 9seconds. Althought its not long , but that maybe the best thing that ever happened to me. She gave me a smile while staring at my eyes , and just walked away after the song ended. I never got the chance to say thankyou neighter got the chance to say goodbye.


3rd Feb , Rise and shine ! I walked out onto the beach and she was coming out from her cabin. She was wearing her beach wear , i almost tripped while looking at her sexy wear.

"Hey!" a smile was pasted on her face. " You were the guy who danced with me last night. I dint know we were neighbours"

"yeah , haha" and i got nothing else to say.

"you wanna go to the beach?" she asked .

"yeah!" i replied immediatly.

We walked by the beach together , i got to know her better. We asked each other questions and i end up getting her number. I was so happy and i somehow became very close to her. We spent the whole day being together on the beach until the stars shine at night. We lied down on the soft sand and we started counting the stars , i was counting the moment we spent together. We were relaxing ourselves while listening to the sound of nature . The sound of water splashing on the shore had brought us into our dreams. I looked at her , she smiled even when she's dreaming. I listened to her breathing , along with my heartbeat , its was at the same rhythm. I felt so comfortable and relaxed when i was with her.

To be continued...

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Would You Be My Valentines?

i know its way pass Valentines

but i still wanna pass these words to the ppl out there

for all the ppl *retards* who dont know what Valentine means.Im here to explain for u* dumb shit* -

Valentine's Day or Saint Valentine's Day is a holiday celebrated on February 14 by many people throughout the world. In the West, it is the traditional day on which lovers express their love for each other by sending Valentine's cards, presenting flowers, or offering confectionery. The holiday is named after two among the numerous Early Christian martyrs named Valentine. The day became associated with romantic love in the circle of Geoffrey Chaucer in the High Middle Ages, when the tradition of courtly love flourished.

for further information u retards.please search for Valentines Day in wikipedia

i'll jump straight to the point.some get to celebrate Valentines day with couples.and some celebrate alone.

well for the ppl who's still single or waiting to be accepted in Valentines even though Valentines is last week.dont be myself celebrated Valentines alone with few of my single friends.

well this doesnt mean that we're gays

and for the singles out there...single doesnt means ur gay.but if u insist on being gay.GO AHEAD!BUY A STRAP-ON DILDO IN CASE!

*sry i was carried away*

an hour ago,i was searching for linkin park songs

i found a song called 'Valentine's Day'

quite a nice song

but its mostly for singles

and when i scroll down

the comments inspired me

those comments about being single and all

its kinda freaks me out and in the same way the comments they wrote relates to me in some way

and that gave me the idea of blogging bout Valentines day.

i feel sad for the singles our there.and myself as well.

these are the comments

mosltov (7 hours ago)
i think they should not make valentines day all it is out to be anymore.because like alot of you i am single.but that day made me feel like a loser.ive been single a long time.i mvoed last year and im in high school so its been tough times, but anyways im a loser because i dont reallly have alot of friends and i turn to video games because they are my only escape.but if u get someone who is depressed over it, chances are they committ suicide because they feel that it is an important day.

ryeguy48 (6 hours ago)
I pretend to hate Valentine's Day because of the "Hallmark" thing.
But I really appreciate the meaning behind the holiday. I mean I've always been single. And in the past few years there have been two girls who I've LOVED like for real. But I never got to be with them...this song almost makes me cry. I haven't been able to cry anymore lately tho. Idk why. Maybe I can't.

well this 2 comments reminded me of myself.and i found this website.its a rant bout Valentines Day------

the website are usually rant of ppl who thinks Valentines Day sucks.well, u guys should try and check out the website.example...

Paige's Rant Sent Feb 29:
valentine's that crap, sure it's great if you have it but if you don't it sucks to be you. i know that. everyone gets so hyped up about the perfect gift or their most memorable love and you're sitting there listening with a broken heart wondering why you never have great times like this. valentine's day is just another excuse to lower self-esteem, too. seriously...i mean you feel like totally worthless if you don't have a valentine and you get all depressed watchin mushy gushy love movies all day eating choclate untill you get sick just to chase away all the stupid feelings all the sweet actors and actresses have that seem un-gettable to the immediate future at least....blah valentines day it's a joke. get over it cupid we hate you.

Joseph Wrote on Jan 17:
What's worse than not having a date for Valentines day - never having a date for Valentines day. I don't even think there should be such a thing as Valentines day in the first place, but it doesn't exactly make me feel any better knowing that it does exist and I am alone. Valentines is just another insincere occasion to "prove" your love to someone else - as if paying for dinners/ movies/ dates and christmas & birthday presents isn't enough we have to have a whole day devoted to proving our love to the women in our lives. Yes women made this holiday what it is, so they could either be ecstatic or suffer and eat chocolate, kind of ironic huh? If it was up to guys there would be no Valentines day. All it does is remind people like me that there's love out there, which isn't actually too comforting when you're alone. Knowing that there's love out there and you don't have any makes you feel like there's something wrong with you - as anyone who has ever heard the "you'll find the right guy/girl someday" speech knows all too well. And all this is for a holiday celebrating a guy who got fed to lions hundreds of years ago - seems appropriate doesn't it?

linkinpark-Valentines Day
My insides are turned to ash, so slow
And blew away as I collapsed, so cold
A black wind took them away, from sight
And held the darkness over day, that night

And the clouds above move closer
Looking so disatisfied
But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

I used to be my own protection, but not now
Cause my path has lost direction, somehow
A black wind took you away, from sight
And held the darkness over day, that night

And the clouds above move closer
Looking so disatisfied
And the ground below grew colder
As they put you down inside
But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

So now you're gone
And I was wrong
I never knew what it was like
To be alone

*sry if i made this post emo.i didnt meant it*

now for the couples

whats the sweetest moment u ever seen?

an old couple...holding hands...growing old...

its unusual to see even an old couple can last their love till old and saggy.

omg this is disgusting

and whats hurting to see is and arguement between a couple

Relationships-of all kinds-are like sand
held in you hand.held loosely,with an
open hand,the sand remains where it is.
The minute you close your hand and
squeeze tightly to hold on,the sand trickles
through your fingers.You may hold on to
some of it,but most will be spilled.An relationship
is like that.Held loosely,with respect
and freedom for the other person,
it is likely
to remain intact.But hold too tightly,too
possessively,and the relationship slips away
and is
*p.s:this is not written by m

so please...cherish the ones you love most.You never lose by loving.You always lose by holding back.

im single,so i dont really have much to talk bout,i think i'll stop here.

here are some pics i think its nice.i found it in my sis's pendrive.hehehe

*hope i didnt offended anyone*

Happy Valentines Day to all the couples out there ! keep up the good work!

and for the single,dont hesitate to ask 'would you be my valentines'
you never know whats coming for ya.good luck to all singles out there.

by nic.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Lunch anyone?

nowadays we go for lunch straight after school

and the annoying part is which to go to
  • Ipoh Chicken Rice Shop
  • Kanna Curry House
  • Restaurant Satelite
the food in ipoh is always nice and tasty
but the fucked up part is the price

me:'mai dan mm goiii~'
me:'gei do?'
waiter:'gao kau lok.'

and i just ate 1 god damn chicken rice and 'teh ping'

and i started digging my wallet to pay for the cb chicken rice and teh ping

and i started giving out my innocent look

and i thought i can escape but in the end

i still pay -.-

and recently there was a phobia of going to Kanna

the food there was always so unhygienic

i think u know what i meant

and lastly,Satellite

(never thought i found this on yahoo)
well the food here is okay but the thing is

the song played there -.-

the songs are so god damn old

its like the 70s

besides that

it always scares the shit outta me when i pay for the food

this is me
cause the cashier got the creepy cb pedophile looks who scares the shit outta me

this looks exactly like the guy -.-

think about it.which 1 will u choose from?

from nic.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Bomba Kursus. 7 Feb

Me and ZhuoZhi somehow went for the Bomba Kursus with 7 other guys and 1 teacher.

took a van from chs , and had a little chat.

the fun part starts here , when we reach Tmn Medan , we looked around and Amanda shouted .

reason ? we're the only white ppl in that school lol?
Pn. Siti Noraizan came too.

we sat at the canteen to prepare and trained marching a little.

guess what , when they started to gather ppl , US the chinese , DONT UNDERSTAND A SHIT FROM THE COMMANDERS

and we was like , LOOKING AROUND AND DO WHAT PPL DO . -.-

the only one making us HOT is Xiaorong.

almost every guy commander came and ask what school are we from ?

AND THE EYES ARE O.O to XiaoRong .

just like this.

" Ni Men Shen Me Xue Xiao " asked a commander
"Cathloic ." I answered
" Ohh , Catholic Hen Da Hor" said the commander with GOOGLE eyes like this O,O on XR's private part LOL

We kinda had some marching practice

and the commanders gave comments.

we never got seleceted but the girls got selected. all of them O.O

we went out to the mamak nearby and had our lunch. we slacked there for a long time and teachers texted us and scolded us.

we then ran back to the school and used BoonJiaZhi went to the toilet for 30min as a reason .

by the time we got back , they're gathering alrd . we totally embarressed ourselves infront of the crowd -.-

we had hose marching after that , everyone is suppose to solo and take the hose and run -.- imagine the weight of that thing !

me and zhuozhi then ask permission to go back to school and guess what. PnSitiNoraizan asked me to see pn limyokekeng on tuesday. i was like WTF ? both of us never do anything wrong and we gotta see pnlimyokekeng?

this is from me and zhuozhi to pnSitiNoraizan

we headed back to school anyway and went to nic's house. we had some crazy time there =D

By. loon , zhuozhi